Pip Angela Clarke - Worrall

hi angela its mary hannahs mummy x ive managed to get hannah on here too, i must admit it has taken me some time for me to do it as my grief has been so bad x how are you? hope all is well with all of you x been to see pip quite abit lately in f/wood you have her garden lovely bless you x Ive been thinking of you alot and hope you are ok x sweet dreams to pip and of cause lots of love,hugs and kisses, think of our babies each and every day and how much we miss them. say Hia to your wonderful mum too. take good care angela love always mary xx

Mary Kay (Friend) October 10, 2008

HI

Hi

Im so sorry pip couldnt stay im Ellas Mummy im sure you've hurd all about me from mary and rachel. It would be lovely to meet up and hear all about pip. djtezzap@aol.com xxxx

Huge floaty kisses to pip tonite on butterfly wings xxx

Emma Ellas Mummy August 18, 2008

I\'m Sorry

I am sorry for your loss I really am. Your little Pip is with all the other little ones now. I wish it were different for you all I really do.
Take care of yourself.

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Mummy To An Angel (Mummy to another Angel) August 18, 2008

hello!!

Hiya Ang, really looking forward to sunday!! Totally beleive its fate that brought us grieving mummy's together, our angels have been working hard havent they!! Your mum was the messenger, i met her at Oscar's garden, and then i met Mary at Pips garden! Mary also knows my other friend Emma, Ella's mummy....funny isnt it how we know eachother and we have all met! definately our little angels work all this!! hope your doing ok? Glad you liked the photo's i put on for you, i really wasnt too sure if it would really upset you but glad u liked them. Mary is so nice, was texting her yesterday too, we swapped numbers. i told her about sunday and said she is welcome to come too, i'll text her nearer the time and see if she fancies it. I'll have to go see Hannah sometime too. Not managed to get to cemetary today, i mite pop later on once ive put Maddie to bed! i was there three times yesterday.... just felt the need to go that many times, i went a bit later on too around 10pm-ish with my friend after id been to the gym it was getting dark, so Oscar's solar light was lit up, id never seen it lit up before, made me cry! silly things lately seem to set me off! My friend asked me what had upset me and i just said, his solar light was on!?? she looked abit confused! but little things like that do trigger my emotions off for some reason! silly aint it! im just abit emotional and hormonal at the mo i think!!! Really looking forward to speaking to you....someone who knows what im going through!! Lots of Love... Rachel xxxxx

Rachel Goldspink (Friend) August 5, 2008

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TO LOSE SOMEONE CLOSE
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♥ To lose someone you love is hard to bear
To lose your child is beyond compare
Whether the child is a daughter or son
Each one of them is a precious one ♥

♥ Your children can never be replaced
Every one of them has their own special place
Your heart is heavy it feels like lead
You don’t want to believe your child is dead ♥

♥ You don’t think the pain will ever go away
No matter what other people may say
No one knows just what to say to you
You need their help to see you through ♥

♥ Life it seems so unfair
You wish your child could still be there
Your memories fill your heart and head
You remember all the things they said ♥

♥ Life is for living and you must go on
You pretend each day they have not gone
Until you meet them once again
You will learn to live through this terrible pain ♥

Kelly Angel Simpsons Mummy August 4, 2008

We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And days before that too.
We think of you in silence,
We often speak your name.
Now all we have are memories,
And your picture in a frame.
Your memory is our keepsake,
With which we'll never part;
God has you in his keeping,
But we have you in our hearts.

Kelly Angel Simpsons Mummy July 27, 2008

Hiya Ang, Been to the cemetary today while the sun was shining i went and sat with Pip for a while, because they gardeners were mowingthe grass near Oscar. The article in the paper has had so much responce, Somebody left Oscar a new bear the other day, i dont knopw who it was from?! and the editor of the paper rang today to say someone had been in and left some toys and teddy bears for Oscar! i was so touched! When i went to pick them up they took another photo theyre going to do a follow up next week! I brought them to the cemetary today i gave Pip the girlie ones..... a little doll and a forever friends bear! Hope she like them! :-)
I hope theyre boyfriend and girlfriend too...... Pip's got a toy boy!! xxx
I think theyve brought us together, two greiving mummys.... we both needed someone else to understand the pain! my family and friends have been great, but no one quite understands how i feel i dont think!
Look forward to hearing from you soon.
lots of Love Rachel xxxx

kisses to our beautiful little angels pip and 0scar xxxx

Rachel Goldspink (Friend) July 25, 2008

So Sorry

Hello,
Thanks you so much for your message on Ella-Mae's site, it means so much to know other people are going through the same thing and surviving. Its so hard at times and i feel like going to live with my baby, but knowing other people have the strength to keep going encourages me.
Thank you so much for your Message
I know Pip and Ella-Mae will be there together watching down on us and smiling because they know how much their mummys love them.
Leanne xx

Leanne Newton (Mummy who knows) July 25, 2008

Hi Angela, Thats is such good news about trying again, Pip may soon be a big sister, how lovely! Were trying again too! I just couldnt wait!! I am really excited and it cant happen quick enough but because i want it so bad i think it will take time! I am so pleased today that the story of Oscar's teddy bear has made front page of the Fleetwood weekly news. I hope the scum who has taken is bear etc is reading it and feeling so ashamed!! What a beautiful idea of the Tattoo of the little angel. I think i am going to get 'oscar' and a little love heart written on my foot. I've been thinking about you today, i am so pleased your trying again, it really is lovely news. Ive been to see Pip today, the little sweetheart.... Her headstone is so nice Ang. If you feel brave enough and when you get round to it, you'l have to add a picture of Pip i'm dying to see her! She will be as beautifull as i am picturing her i bet.
We have such beautiful memories of Oscar, in hospital, at home and in the funeral home. I had him early hours of a saturday morning, with no sleep that whole night, i dont know how i was so full of beans! Of cause we were so devastated to know i was in labour and he didnt survive but for about thr first 6 hours i couldnt cry hardly, I just starred at him in amazement and cuddled him and kissed him i spoke to him and told him how much i love him. My husband and Mum was with me the whole time, We had him weighed, his footprints/handprints were done, we had some lovely pictures taken in hospital, my best friend came too, i just wanted to show him off, show people how beautiful he was. We were given the option to bring him home, which didnt even cross my mind they'd let you do that, but we jumped at the chance, i went in hosital literally with nothing. I wanted to dress him, clean him up, wrap him in his blankets and lay him in his moses basket/pram etc. We brought him home, we had a few visitors there too. We were flooded with cards/flowers thats when the tears started! We spent all afternoon with him on our own, real bonding time. Maddie also came to meet him, she loved him so much she dragged out all his blankets/teddys/dummies from his nursery upstairs, it was heartbreaking but i loved the fact that she loved her little brother and she wouldnt leave him alone. She was rocking him in his pram. We have some lovely pictures from the time he spent at home, He stayed the night which was nice too, He was in his moses basket next to our bed but i kept waking up on the hour every hour crying.... So we had him in our bed in the middle of us i just lead starring at him for hours. He was unbeleivably beautiful. I cried so much taking him back to the hospital, it was so hard. He should have bee with his family who love him so much.
Did you bring Pip home? Do you have any memories of her which you can share? I have so many many more!
Its so nice to speak to you and ive glad we can talk like this.... my mobile number is:07908859604 if you ever want to text or talk?
All my love to you and your family and big kisses to Pip
Rachel xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Rachel Goldspink (Friend) July 23, 2008

Hello pips mummy x

Hello, Thanks for visiting Oscar last time you went to the cemetary, its so nice to know he has visitors.... We love visiting little Pip too! That is such a lovely idea knowing when your time is up all your family will be with Baby pip... Pip will be very proud! i think your so strong and brave going back to work...my maternity is untill december, which am pretty glad about because just before i left i moved office's and didnt really know any one so i was just sat doing my work, and if i was there now id be thinking things over and over in my head and id break down... While am at home maddie keeps me busy everyday and im dealing with it that way. im just not ready to go back to work because too much thinking just upsets me. I work at warbreck house in blackpool/bispham. Did you enjoy tram sunday? We went down maddie loved it... spent a fortune on all the rides! How are you and your husband? Me and wayne have our good days and bad days i guess, i think were going to book a holiday soon once we've paid for the headstone, it will be nice to get away for a while. I'll miss going to the cemetary tho, i try and go every day or every other day im only down the road. i find it brings me a lot of comfort. I was so mad last week when i went tho, did u ever see the teddy bear we had for Oscar?...well it was a big blue bear with a tshirt on saying 'my 1st teddy' well its been pinched and other little toys he had have gone too, it made me so mad! ive written a letter of complaint to fleetwood weekly news i hope they print it. It would be lovely to meet you, when ever your free??? I've met another friend on here too, she is lovely. She had ababy called Ella at the same gestation as Oscar she lived a bit longer than oscar tho.
Hope your all ok.....speak to you soon. Lots of love to you, yourfamily and Pip of cause. From Rachel xxxxx

Rachel Goldspink (Friend) July 21, 2008